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Luke 24:36-48 New International Version (NIV)

Jesus Appears to the Disciples

36 While they were still talking about this, Jesus himself stood among them and said to them, “Peace be with you.”

37 They were startled and frightened, thinking they saw a ghost. 38 He said to them, “Why are you troubled, and why do doubts rise in your minds? 39 Look at my hands and my feet. It is I myself! Touch me and see; a ghost does not have flesh and bones, as you see I have.”

40 When he had said this, he showed them his hands and feet. 41 And while they still did not believe it because of joy and amazement, he asked them, “Do you have anything here to eat?” 42 They gave him a piece of broiled fish, 43 and he took it and ate it in their presence.

44 He said to them, “This is what I told you while I was still with you: Everything must be fulfilled that is written about me in the Law of Moses, the Prophets and the Psalms.”

45 Then he opened their minds so they could understand the Scriptures. 46 He told them, “This is what is written: The Messiah will suffer and rise from the dead on the third day, 47 and repentance for the forgiveness of sins will be preached in his name to all nations, beginning at Jerusalem. 48 You are witnesses of these things.


This poster was put up by James Gillis around Toronto in 2010. It offers a reward of $500 to have a fellow’s legs broken.





















































The man described in THE GLOBE AND MAIL story, the man pictured above, is a Jehovah’s Witness.

Jehovah’s Witnesses have their own version of THE BIBLE. Their version has been edited so that it conforms to Jehovah’s Witness beliefs.

George Orwell, in 1984, called this “newspeak.”

Around the world today Jehovah’s Witnesses are gathering to celebrate the death of Jesus.

They do not gather three days later on Sunday to celebrate the resurrection of Jesus. Jehovah’s Witnesses see Easter as a Pagan celebration.

Jehovah’s witnesses state that Jesus did not rise in a physical body. For them God raised Jesus up in a spiritual body.

The thing is the body we are in right now this moment actually is a spiritual body. It’s just that most of us don’t know that.

We ought to.

Albert Einstein told us.



Einstein said that all matter is really just energy slowed down so that we can see and feel it.

INRI: Ignis Naturalis Regeneratis Ignis.

INRI for Christians symbolizes the letters placed above the head of Jesus (  IESVS NAZARENVS REX IVDÆORVM (Iesus Nazarenus, Rex Iudaeorum), which in English translates to “Jesus the Nazarene, King of the Jews” (John 19:19).   )

One of the many remarkable people I have met through my programs and had the great goods fortune to live with is Emmanuel Feltaous.

Emmanuel came to my SEX & VIOLENCE CARTOON FESTIVAL. The staff working with me included the wonderful, unrequited love of my life, Karl Bustamante. Karl said, “Emmanuel is really cool. You’ve got to have him living with us.”

Karl being a person I can’t say no to Emmanuel lived with us.

Thank God he did.

Emmanuel, who is Egyptian, had lived with a hermit in a hut on a mountain in Greece. The hermit had said to him, “The letters ‘INRI’ which most think to mean ‘Jesus of Nazareth King Of The Jews’ also mean ‘Ignis Naturalis Regeneratis Ignis,’ “Light made Flesh Reborn As Light.'”

When Emmanuel told me that a thrill of electricity shot through me.

We are all light made flesh about to be reborn as light, even Jehovah’s Witnesses.

Martin Luther King Jr. said, “Worse than the words of our enemies is the silence of our friends.” He also said,”Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.”

When the first poster appeared on Toronto streets offering $500 to have a fellow’s legs broken I was astounded. I took it down. Where I saw similar posters I took them down.

When the posters went up stating that a fellow I knew was a police informant I was staggered. Now that fellow had given me every reason not to help him. But I was faced with the one reason why I had to.

What reason is that?

Albert Einstein said it in words that ripple back in time, “All that is required for evil to triumph is for good men to do nothing.”

I could not afford it but I bought my first video camera. Then I filmed all the posters that had been put up (there were thousands) around the city. Then I put the video up on the web: .

Then I contacted the CBC, CTV, Global, City-TV, The Toronto Star, The Toronto Sun, The National Post, The Globe And Mail–all those folk who make a profession out of caring.

They said the story was not big enough, not important enough.

Meanwhile the crack addicts who live by begging on the streets and whose very existence is one of heightened paranoia were getting out their knives ’cause they hate rats.

Thankfully one woman in then Mayor David Miller’s office thanked me for having made her aware of this murderous slander. She said, “I have contacted the police. It will be stopped.”

Terry said, “You saved my life. I was going to kill myself.”

That was in 2010.

Two years later in 2012 I found thousands of posters all over Toronto designed to bring a lynch mob to my door.

That was when a complete stranger and a man new to Toronto, Oliver More, wrote the piece published in THE GLOBE AND MAIL.

Ed Keenan, then writing in EYE weekly, said of More’s piece, “Well, Toronto has at least one real journalist.”

The author of all this mischief has been literally getting away with murder.

Nonetheless, I am grateful to him.

As a result of this adversary’s constant effort to drag me down I have had to plumb the depths of what it really means to be a Christian.

What does it mean?

Well, it’s right there in THE LORD’S PRAYER.

“Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.”

I was fucked.

Now the song says “God forgives.  I don’t.”

Only if we don’t God don’t.

So there I found myself nailed to the cross by the words of the man who defeated the cross.

So here I am today right now this moment.

Just before Christmas 2017 a homeless street person living out of a tent said, “I was offered $30 a week to tear down your posters, $100 to break your legs and $1,00.00 to kill you. Thing is, if I’ve been offered this, others have.”

Yeah, that’s probably true.

I shut down my programs for January and February. It’s just too damn cold to run around posting flyers on the streets.

I started them up on the 17th and 18th of March, 2018 with KID DRACULA (the silent film NOSFERATU set to the music of RADIOHEAD).

That was a Saturday and a Sunday.

On the 18th one of the men who came here asked if he could access the internet to check his mail.

He skipped my introduction to the movie (he was in the hall when I walked out after having given it–that took up about half an hour) and he skipped the movie.

I have been a student of THE I CHING since I first chanced upon it in 1968. It kept warning me I was going to be blindsided.

Well, if we knew what was coming we would not be blindsided now, would we?

Around 6am one morning in May, 2018 the police arrived in force at my door. Seems on or about the 18th of March, 2018 someone downloaded child porn on my web.

Now I, like a great many other people, use a VPN for security. So whomever downloaded what it sure as Hell was not done on a VPN.


Well, as Paul wrote in Romans 8:28, “All things work together for the good for those who trust the LORD.”

That must have been pretty tough for Paul to believe when Nero ordered his head be separated from his body but Paul continued saying that right up to the moment he could no longer say it. Ditto Peter whose life ended the same day.

So here I am 2000 years later saying, “all things work together for the good for them that trust the LORD.”

They do.

King David’s last wife was 11 years old. He was 72.

Mary was 11 when she gave birth to Jesus.

Bagoas, according to Mary Renault, was 11 when he climbed into Alexander’s bed to give him the blowjob of his life. According to Oliver Stone Bagoas was a drag queen in his twenties.  Stone lacked the stones to go as far as Mary Renault but then women generally have more balls then men.

Jane Jacobs, author of THE DEATH AND LIFE OF GREAT AMERICAN CITIES, and Judith Merril, the mother of modern science/speculative fiction (both of whom I met because I walked out of high school when told I had the wrong attitude and would starve in two weeks if I did) Jane and Judy taught me that the concept we call childhood is a recent invention. Historically, right from the moment they came out out of the womb infants were viewed as adult minds in small bodies.

I don’t say this to justify a desire to have sex with eleven year olds. I don’t have a desire to have sex with eleven year olds.

When the film PIXOTE (1981)  about an 11 year old male street prostitute came out one local journalist who seldom walked the streets reviewed it saying he was glad he lived in a country where children were not working as prostitutes. “I wept over my children when I went home after seeing the film,” he wrote. Sid was never a very astute man. The day I read his words I was walking down Yonge Street posting flyers for my programs when a six year old girl said, “Give me $2 and I will suck your cock.”

I gave her $5 not to.

I’m sure more than one person took her up on her offer. I know people must have done it before for otherwise she would not have made the offer.

The film SONNY (2002) with James Franco was Nicholas Cage’s first feature. It’s about a boy raised by his mother to follow in her footsteps as a whore.

This sort of things happens all the time.

PRETTY BABY (1978) tells the same tale: .

Jodie Foster was introduced as a child prostitute in TAXI DRIVER (1976) .

Wiktor Grodecki’s MANDRAGORA (1997) broke my heart. Grodeki’s two earlier documentaries, NOT ANGELS BUT AGELS (1994),  deal with underage boys , BODY WITHOUT SOUL (1996) walk the same streets.

Children have always been exploited.

Bobby Driscoll was treated like a prince when he was young and beautiful but cast aside when he got too old to be exploited. .

Judy Garland was treated like a princess until time wore out her welcome. Shirley Temple, Deanna Durbin, the many kids in the OUR GANG comedies (   ), the whole history of show business rings with tales as harrowing as the worst story about the worst pedophile who ever existed.

All those kids we see in contemporary TV shows are today treated as royalty.

Show business is an unforgiving business.

Actors are people who get paid for lying. That’s why so many great actors have been homosexuals and lesbians. They had to learn to lie adeptly at an early age or die.

The shame is not that Kevin Spacey is Kevin Spacey but that we condemn the man as a society because he’s not better than we are.

Except he is.

In film after film he gives us monsters who have one face in private and another in public. Kevin Spacey has always given us the truth. Most of us were too blind to see it.

Federico Fellini gave us that in 1953’s I VITELLONI when one of the characters walks with the actor he reveres back to the man’s home after the performance only to discover that the man he worships is a homosexual. The gradual removal of the layers by the actor as we approach the moment of climax is wonderful: .

“Have you ever heard the saying, ‘he who harms…'” said the detective in charge of interrogating me at the police station.

I finished for him, “‘Better a millstone was tied around his neck and he was cast in the sea.'” I added, “Though your sins be scarlet they shall be white as snow.” ( ).

“I don’t accept that,” said the detective.

I do.

It was there while being questioned that I learned that the chief source of information the police had relied upon was the man doing his best to murder myself and others with street posters, lies and slander.

No big deal.

To whom did the police turn to bring down Oscar Wilde.

The mob chose the murderer over Jesus.

And where is the lying murderer who has done his best to destroy myself, Terry Ross, Daniel Goggin and others?

He’s in church celebrating the murder of Jesus.

How apt the old saying is: the nearer the church/synagogue/temple the farther from Allah/The Buddha/God.

You won’t catch me in church.

There is another saying: men pray to God on Sunday and prey on men on Monday.

Yes, indeed they do.

The press that has with one exception been silent while one man did and continues to do his best to murder was loud when he got his victory.

But then they make their money by trumpeting our stumbles.

The media is just the town gossip.

For months the headlines blare the news of trials we must face.

We only get one headline when we are found innocent.

Nonetheless, the world demands strength from us.

God grant me in the name of he whom the world murdered on this day the strength to endure.

In return I agree to forgive all who have trespassed and will trespass against me.

Vengeance is God’s not mine to give.

As Macduff in MACBETH said, “LORD, in the hour of thy vengeance let the hand be mine.”

Like my brother I will rise from the dead.

While I was in prison an Angiel came to me.

“Be still. Know that I am.”

This is where Faith becomes knowledge.

Life demands always that we make a leap of faith.

Without that we are nothing…no thing.

This is where we sweat blood.

–Reg Hartt 4/19/2019.

“Most teachers say you should go to school to get your degree to have something to fall back on. Aside from being a huge lie, that also creates a very high level of mediocrity, because nobody who really believes that is going to take the leap of faith required to be a serious artist. Stay out of school.”–Ellis Marsalis to his sons Branford, Delfeayo and Wynton.

I was the last to hear of the death of Reg Hartt.




“The righteous may fall seven times, But they will get up again.”
Proverbs 24:16



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