“Is that my lovely Charlotte or my naughty Maria,” said the mother of Ranier Maria Rilke when the young boy knocked on her door.
She wanted a daughter not a son. She dressed him as a girl.
“It is your lovely Charlotte,” he would reply.
In the argument over the existence of GOD it seems unknown to both sides that the being referred to by believers as YAHWEH/JEHOVAH has three names (establishing the Trinity from the start).
Those names are (1) I AM, (2) I AM THAT I AM, (3) I WILL BE WHAT I WILL BE.
Rilke’s line “If only we would let ourselves be dominated
as things do by some immense storm,
we would become strong too, and not need names”
defines “I WILL BE WHAT I WILL BE.”
He is saying, “I DECIDE WHO I AM.”
“Whoever was beaten by this Angel
(who often simply declined the fight)
went away proud and strengthened
and great from that harsh hand,
that kneaded him as if to change his shape.
Winning does not tempt that man.
This is how he grows: by being defeated, decisively,
by constantly greater beings.”
Winning does not tempt that man defines a man who, while he can be decisively defeated, cannot be beaten.
That we are defeated by a disease like cancer or by a soulless bureaucracy or any one of the many things that try and often succeed at dragging us down does not mean we are beaten.
“Call no one rabbi for you have one Rabbi, the Father and let no one call you Rabbi,” said Jesus (words 99.9% of we who say we have him in our heart when, clearly, we do not, ignore. Those who look for teachers and who are happy to be called teachers are a great multitude).
We are here to become one with the Father.
“The Kingdom of Heaven is like leaven in bread.”–Jesus.
To understand this bake bread.
We put the leaven in. The dough rises.
However it is airy, filled with bubbles.
We pound it down. It rises again. The air bubbles are smaller. We keep pounding it down until the bread reaches a denseness that means it is ready for the fire. We have kneaded it.
Walking with (not following) the Father is not a Rock Concert where we sit while one person speaks.
That is herd intoxication.
It is following a strait path on which every step must be made with care and caution on which we find ourselves utterly alone.
Each time we fall we rise up stronger.
Winning does not tempt us.
“Whoever was beaten by this Angel
(who often simply declined the fight)
went away proud and strengthened
and great from that harsh hand,
that kneaded him as if to change his shape.”
For those who have faced and are facing trials.
In the end we learn we needed the things that crushed us.
Mark 16: 15 He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation. 16 Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. 17 And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; 18 they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.”
Because I believed I fired three lawyers. Because I believed I was/am saved. Though my sins were scarlet they are white as snow.
“but whoever does not believe will be condemned.”
Had I not believed I would have been condemned.
“18 they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.”
Snakes mean the serpent, the liar and the murderer from the beginning and the father of it. ( John 8:44 )
For decades liars and murderers have done their best to harm myself and others. This is not fantasy nor paranoia.
“they will place their hands on the sick, and they will get well.”
I had a dog I had raised from a pup. One day he could not swallow his food. The medical experts said, “No dog in this country has survived with what he has. Put him down.”
“What about outside this country?” I asked.
They said, “Only two.”
I said, “Then one in Canada will.”
One in Canada did.
I adopted. an old traumatized cat. The third time he bit me I said to him softly, “You know it is okay.
He had a complete change of heart for the better.
I don’t waste my time sitting in a church listening to a wo/man speak to a multitude.
I leave vengeance to the Father.
I haven’t got time to waste on hate.
“Is pleasure once again going to come to these withered breasts?” said Sarah, now an old lady, when told by I AM/I AM THAT I AM/I WILL BE WHAT I WILL BE that she would give birth to a son.
The Father waits until all human means are exhausted.
With my lawyers I waited until each proved themself false.
“We have the seed of GOD in us. Hazel seeds grow hazel trees. Pear seeds grow pear trees. GOD seeds grow GODS.”–Meister Eckhart.
Trust the seed within.
Jesus did not say to those healed, “I have made you whole.” nor does Jesus say, “GOD has made you whole.”
He says, “Your faith (trust) has made you whole.”
You don’t need me nor Pope Leo nor some preacher to lay hands on you.
It is our trust which makes us whole.
We need not that any woman should teach us for we have one teacher, the Father.
Do not let anyone call you teacher.
–Reg Hartt July 2, 2026.
